Hunter shares her story and struggles in the modeling industry. And how God taught her how to see the beauty that she has in His eyes.
Hmmm. okay where do i start? I’ll take you back to 16 years old. I’m 5’11 weighing in at 114 lbs. bleach blonde,long hair, braces, acne, full face of makeup, and an outfit that was right out of Mean Girls (Probably a Juicy Couture jumpsuit and Uggs) behind that flashy girl was a shy, insecure girl who would eat lunch in her Spanish teachers room (Shout out to Mrs. Rollins!) everyday with her best friend because she was so afraid to be around the people she went to school with. Hi I’m Hunter, 21 now, and if i knew what i know now, that beginning statement would be a lot different. In high school i was extremely bullied, even at a very thin,tall stature, i would be called fat,ugly, i got my money, cell phone, clothes, purses, makeup,and jewelry stolen from me numerous times. I got phone calls threatening me if i went to school. I didn’t talk to anyone because i was so afraid to be shut down, not acknowledged, that i wasn’t going to fit in and that no one cared about whatever i had to say. I stuck to myself on the inside but on the outside i did everything i could to fit in. Waking up extremely early to straighten my hair perfectly and put on a full face of makeup, picking my outfit out to make sure it matched that of whatever the popular girls were wearing. It didn’t matter, regardless of how i looked, my heart would beat out of my chest the moment i would walk on the school campus. I would cry everyday afterwards and every morning before. During that time i was trying to model, i clearly remember this boy i liked asking me what i wanted to do, i was so excited he was even talking to me! I told him i wanted to be a model. To which he answered, “For what? Proactive??” i laughed it off but was so hurt by that comment as i knew what he was implying. (*sidenote* I WISH proactive would hire me now! talk about a killer contract! Lol!) i went home that night and cried and asked God why this was happening to me? Why couldn’t i be popular, why couldn’t i get invited to parties, why couldn’t i be accepted as i was? I finally got out of high school and was homeschooled from sophomore year on and graduated 2 years early.
I would go into modeling agencies and they would tell me i needed to loose 3 inches off of my already slender hips. I tried everything i could to make this happen. The best way i knew how was to not eat, to count calories on everything. I remember one test shoot i did where the photographer told me i was pretty but would be BEAUTIFUL and would work if i lost about 10 more pounds. The breaking point for me was when a tee shirt company reached out to me via a website called ModelMayhem and i finally booked a job! I was ecstatic.This was it! I showed up to the shoot with my mom, we walked in, music was playing, lights everywhere, an amazing spread of food, pretty much everything every little girl dreams about minus the entire crew glaring at me. Why were they all staring?! I meet the girl who hired me, introduce my mom and i run off to use the bathroom with my mom before getting the show started! While we were in there, the very same girl comes in and says. “Im so sorry to tell you this, We didn’t realize how big you were, we won’t be able to use you unfortunately. We don’t think any of the shirts will be able to fit you” (They didn’t even let me try one on, they just sent me home) Me and my mom were mortified. BIG?!?! I was a size 2-4! I played it cool until i got to the car, then, i let it out, balling my eyes out. In that moment i thought that my dreams that i had since i was a little girl were not going to come to fruition. I was mad at God, I was mad that He gave me this desire and it wasn’t being fulfilled.
I have now been able to work with some of the top companies such as Forever 21,Lucky Brand, Nordstrom, Hautelook, Dillards, Zappos, Burlington Coat Factory, Ross, and Rue 21 just to name a few. I give God all the glory. He has shown me time and time again what it is to be Christ like, what it looks like to share His love and light. This is my ministry, through my travels i have been able to speak to so many people about the goodness of my heavenly father, to share my story (this is the short version, i couldn’t possibly keep you all here all day!) and for that, i am unbelievably grateful. Im grateful to live in a world where body positivity is on the rise, where self love and confidence is an everyday topic, where we can band together and lift eachother up in a world that wants nothing more than to tear us down.Lets Lift Up and Love!
Christina is passionate about restoring value, purpose, identity and beauty to the young women of this generation. Follow- @beauty_hasnosize