For many years I believed that the length of my hair determined my self worth and how beautiful I was in the eyes of the world around me. Coming from the East Indian background where long hair is a sign of beauty and customary. I found my beauty in my long hair, until one day in 2012 I cut it all off in a season of deep depression.
Cutting off my hair, really did something to the way I saw myself. I stopped hearing the words "beautiful and gorgeous" when it came to my hair and I started hearing the words "cute and edgy". As a model (with my new Dora the explorer haircut) I looked to the modeling industry to give me back the value that I felt like I had lost when I cut my hair. Even though I didn't feel beautiful with my short hair, I would go home and say "well I must be beautiful because the top modeling agencies in the world like Wilhelmina are signing me to their agency with my short hair." Yet a modeling contract with these top agencies didn't fix the fact that i no longer felt beautiful inside.
In that season of my life, God taught me that the length of my hair didn't define my beauty or worth, and having long hair wasn't what made me beautiful to begin with. Coloring my hair blonde last year, (the Dora hair needed to go) I began to grow out my hair for the first time in 4 years. And as it began to grow out people began to compliment how much they loved my hair. Yet now when I look in the mirror, I see Christina. Not my long hair, not the compliments of others, I see a child of the King. Growing my hair out again has not helped me to feel more beautiful because I ALREADY feel beautiful because of what my Creator says about me.
Above is a collage of all the different lengths of my hair from 2012 until now. Through all my hair transitions, I have learned this one thing. Whether I am bald, have short hair, long hair, blonde hair or blue hair. The length of our hair should never determine our self worth, how beautiful we feel, or our identity. Even coming from a culture that sees long hair as beautiful, I have learned to look into the mirror of my Creator for my beauty. Not the length of my hair.
If any of you are struggling out there because your hair isn't as long as it used to be, remember that your hair is never what made you beautiful to begin with. Your beauty comes from your joy, your compassion, your love, your smile, and God's light shining in and through you!!
Christina is passionate about restoring value, purpose, identity and beauty to the young women of this generation. Follow- @beauty_hasnosize